march sucks

hello march. i hate you by the way. bad month bad story and bad life WHY YOU SO SUCKS?! fuck you, god change march please or erase march i really hate this month for sure. let me change march to hm idk HAHA. ok, i hv a reason why i hate march
1. my life getting sucks
2. depression
3. crying everyday
OK. MANY REASON THAT I CAN'T SAY.

12 march saturday 2011 --> broke up
hes change a lot guys, i hate when a boy change. yes, i really sad i hate being sad. mommyyy help me and i cant stand i cant hide my tears ok, he's tired he's know that i lie. this is my mistakes, i drink in the club but i just try and i wont drink and let myself drunk. i hate 12 march, i let he go he let me go and do u know? i cry everyday i miss everything about him I REALLY MISS HIM. i think he loves somebody eles but wht he dont :) he still love me and i really happy. but why he so easy to let me go? when i know i cant its harder than you know honeyy. i chat w/ him he greet me in bbm

S: halo ihihi
A: hahh (mean i'm shock)
S: kenapa..
A: kenapa?
S: gapapa ciit
A: di ancol?
S: iyaa
A: ok take caree.
S: iyaa makasih yaa
A: smsmm

yes god i cant hide my tears. i cant hide my sad.

13 march sunday 2011

i change my display picture (sultan photo when he fall asslep in my room)
and when he woke up he greet me again he ask me why i answer i still love you & he say i still love you too. OHHH SO BAD SO BAD SO BAD SHOCK SHOCK ITS MAKE ME SAD AND CRY *AGAIN* MY TEARS RUN DOWN SO FAST. I CANT HIDE!!
and i ask i want to be yours, i'll change everything. ok he say yes. YOU KNOW? HE MINE. HORAY ITS MAKE ME FEEL BETTER, GOD YOU LISTEN MY WISH. but why he so dfrnt? SO DIFFERENT. he change a lot, i know he still hv pain bcos i lie. but i'll try to be the best.. i always try.

ps: i love you sultan notonegoro.

w life & new story

halooo. sebenernya ini blog udah lama banget2 dan isinya juga udah banyak tapi berhubungan udah gapenting lagi jadi gue apus terus tinggal 3 isinya sih penting tentang temen2 gitu nah skrg gue mau cerita, a new story & new life pastinya. sho sho.. skrg anak2 udah berubah semua mencar2 & lupa kayanya sama temen2 lamanya, sedih sih iya pengen gt rasanya gabungin lagi tp gimana caranya tapi ga semuanya mencar sih kadang2 masih bareng dan masih kerasa banget solidnya mereka :-D disini gue mau cerita tentangg yang baru deh dr awal aja kali nih. im sultan's jadi.. pas tanggal 22 sultan nembak pake voice note lucu gitu suaranya cadel2 ok dr awal. jadi waktu gue blm tidur insomnia gitu gue masang pm "greet" dan tbtb ada yang nyapa gitu namanya sultan hahahah gila sebenernya dulu pengen bgt kenalan sm sultan tbtb nyapa hm rahasia. terus chat gitu udah tuh ga chat2 lagi pas kapan gt dia nyapa lagi nah deket2 terus jujur2an dll pas tanggal 22 dia nembak berhubungan gue gasuka tanggal 22 jadi gue blg gue mau nerimanya besok terus akhirnya besoknya gue udah jadian ;) udah kan dan pertama mlm mingguan pas galaxee! kangen banget, pas sore2nya dia kerumah kan terus ketemuan lagi di galaxee. gue sm sultan udah hampir 2 bulaan cuy, di 1 bulan itu kita udah kaya ada masalah & dimasalah itu gue baru tau sifatnya sultan gimana dia emosian banget ternyata tp gapapa jadi saling ngerti sifat2nya. AND WHAT THE HELL dari hari jumat gue ada masalah sampe skrg blm tuntasss emang sih nyadar gue bego ngebohongin tapi ya gimana, bohong demi kebaikan. skrg ga ada kabar2an gt kita terakhir semalem dia blg lg mau sendiri jadi ya gt deh, sakit sih gakuat sebenernya gini pengen nyapa tp lg berantem. kangen bangeeet pengen teriak banget rasanya tuh udah nyampe hati udah nusuk banget tp gabisa ngungkapin juga, bingung kerjaan nya cuma nangis2 doang dr kmrn ga ada cara lain buat nenangin hati :( hari ini kayanya dia mau pergi jaga diri aja jangan sampe yang aneh2. i know kok lo masih sering ngerokok banyak2 gue gabisa ngelarang, udah capek ngelarangnya pdhl demi kebaikan lo juga mau gimana lagi yakaaannn haha ok gbyeee gakuat bawaan nya mau nangis daah

ps: i try to be the best for you. i'll change for you & i miss the old you.